Facing My Fears

Genesis 32:7 In great fear and distress Jacob divided the people who were with him into two groups, and the flocks and herds and camels as well.

So many times a day I am afraid. My heart races. My breathing deepens. My palms sweat. Anything triggers it. Feeling a lack of preparation; overwhelmed by upcoming events; confused by the Why's of life. But my biggest fear is making those decisions and hoping they are for God's will and not my own. Making the right choice, the wise choice.

Today in class we discussed wisdom. My student, Sarah Cruse, said wisdom meant the application of knowledge. Wow. How profound. We read Proverb 4. Proverbs 4 lists out all the things that the application of knowledge does. First it says to get knowledge and getting knowledge means reading the Bible and learning God's character. Once the knowledge is acquired, temptation will come. This is when we have the opportunity excercise wisdom (or apply our new knowledge).

It seems to me, no matter how much I read and learn, it will never be enough. I make choices everyday out of fear and distress because most times the end result of each decision is not clear. But I make them anyway. I know that comfort only brings the same; But this courage can bring glory to His name!